What happens when you are really pissed, and you are a stoic, and you don’t know why you are so pissed, you write . Let’s see, there are many reasons to be pissed. Work doesn’t deliver the same in January, people say things you do not really agree with or find just disgusting. And so the list goes on and on and on and on.
Life can be so unfair, but is it? I mean really can you become so enraged as to make life responsible for not having everything as you would like it. That is definetly a wrong approach, because life will not change for me or for you, or for anyone.
So now, we’ve arrived into something useful, now is time to ask the question, what can we control? This is where stoicism kicks in.
Well, there are many obstacles, and the only way is the way trough them. Maybe amor fati is not what works best when you are pissed and trying to love everything will just make you as mad. but neverthless those emotions need to be handled,
why are you so angry, what is it that you can’t have? Maybe it is a vacation, maybe it is a grand business maybe is success or I don’t know it can be anything. But there you are pissed like a child because you are not getting it, and worse you are pissed because you don’t know why you are so mad.
This is called growing up. All that we need is already there, but it is only just for the worthy, if the rage you feel inside you is something thats keeping you from going because you believe that everything should be easy, well, you are in for hell. Great things are not easy, they are hard and difficult and great inner power is needed to meet them.
Rage, shows you what, at least it gives you an aim, no emotion is bad emotion, they are all good if used properly.
Now that I’ve stumbled into this thoughts, some kind of wisdom came by, thank god. What if the things we want are not actually what we want? Say, go to Mount Kilimanjaro and climb it, having a Rolls Royce, saving poor people in Africa, writing a successful blog. All this wanting is ensalving, and god, I’m not praising not doing these things, that would be self-defeating. What I think we would all really like, is being capable of having all that, having it is one thing, it is a momentary pleasure, like sex, like food and climbing a mountain and screaming on top of it, it all ends at the moment. This is where we go from having, into being. What we want, what we really want, is being the kind of person that gets all that, now the power is shifted, that is someting that is in your power, right now. Unless we all make that big leap and realize the truth of what we want, we are not going to be able to get all the “stuff” i was angry about for not getting.
We control what we are, right now. And anger and negative emotion gives us the hint, that we are not being as we should be, it is the necessary tension for walking the correct way. Obstacles, they are there for us to become what we need to become, obstacles are gods calling for greatness, it is him asking you to become great, to walk again with him, with paradise regained.